Archive for the ‘frustration’ Category

Sell your PS3

Monday, March 29th, 2010

And don’t buy anyone else’s. Sony is sending down a patch that will be required if you want to stay on the Play Station network that both breaks any “third-party OSs” and eliminates the ability to play copy-protected DVD and CD’s. This will render the system completely worthless. In protest, I advocate selling your PS3 for an outrageously low amount of money (like, less than 10 dollars), or burning it in the street.

Here’s the article.

http://news.cnet.com/8301-13506_3-10471356-17.html

What I really think…

Wednesday, January 27th, 2010

I knew it wasn’t anger then, watching the knife fall in slow motion, ripples on the water. This thing that tears away at my insides, not pain… channeled into rage and violence. And yet I seem to be incapable of violent emotion. Reactions ebb and fade as I stare blindly. Left with nothing but this putrid calm. My head reeling from things that I’ve done… but would it reel like this if I wasn’t so sick? Guilt, fear and passion swallowed by depression, churned and mixed until there’s nothing left but exhaustion. No desire for revenge, no desire for escape or release, no desire… at all. (If this is Samadhi I’d rather have a mildewed mind). Except perhaps for the meaningless fleshly “delights”.

I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone without adapting to the new surroundings. So this is what it’s like to live with the consequences of your mistakes. If it was anger I could hurt my enemies without any remorse. If it was pain I would be able to think of a reason, and it wouldn’t tear apart the fabric of my soul. Maybe it’s nothing but allergies… but then it would mean all this suffering is meaningless (not to mention that it would fail to inspire any prose).

I think the philosophers were insane.

I gave up…

Wednesday, December 16th, 2009

… on waiting until I had an extremely thought-provoking response to the heresy that all non-Jewish governments are also bound by the laws that were handed down to Israel by Moses in the dessert. And if there weren’t enough prepositions in there for ya’, I don’t know what to tell ya’…

Anyways, the contents of my file:

Deut. 12:32 – “What thing soever I command you, observe to do it: thou shalt not add thereto, nor diminish from it.” is often quoted as an argument that we don’t have to follow any of the laws the government makes, as long as they don’t appear in the Bible. I have to say, this is a damnable perversion of scripture. It is, I suspect, intentionally taken out of context. A quick glance through Deut. 12 will reveal that these are laws that were specifically intended ONLY for the children of Israel while they were living in the promised land. The laws didn’t even go into effect for them, until AFTER they possessed their inheritance. (See v. 1, “which ye shall observe to do IN THE LAND…”, v. 10, v. 29. )

Also go back and read the whole of chapter 11, especially v. 8 and vs. 31-32. See also chapter 8, v. 1 and v. 11 – read the whole chapter and then answer this question: to whom did Moses give the commandments. And on what day? (Hint, part of the answer is in chapter 1:1). Also look at chapter 5:1.

Note that this is a continuous dialog. Moses starts his address to the children of Israel in Deut. 1:1 and ends it in Deut. 34:12. You can’t just pull 12:32 right out of the Bible and try to hit us over the head with it.  You can’t separate that verse from all the verses that come before it, about how this was a legal code handed down specifically to the nation of Israel, one they were expected to follow once they entered the promised land.

Then there’s Deut. 4:2… which comes right after verse 1. Forget about verse 1. Don’t look at it, don’t think about it. Verse 2 isn’t for the children of Israel, it isn’t a laying down of the law for that particular nation at that particular time. No, that isn’t stated specifically in verse 1 or anything, really. But don’t look at verse 1 to find out whether I’m lying.

Also, the context isn’t further clarified in verse 5; verse 6 doesn’t make any distinction between the way the Israelites live and the way other nations live; and verses 7-8 don’t a rhetorical question which points out that NO OTHER NATION HAS STATUES AND JUDGMENTS LIKE THESE. No, the covenant that the Lord made with the children of Israel on that day (verse 13) was binding on all governments of all nations until the end of time.  Also don’t bother to check verse 14 and find out, once again, why I can’t believe the covenant doctrine, or whatever it’s called,  is anything but intentional deception.

Even those famous 10 commandments are for the children of Israel. Look at Deut. 6:1-3. I guess those who tell us we are expected to live and die by these 10 commandments, and that we are free to break the law with impunity if it doesn’t limit itself to them, are counting on the fact that most people just look at the commandments all by themselves, and don’t view them as a part of the whole chapter or the whole book, or the whole Bible.

So which parts do apply to me? Well, for starters, probably not the verses that come with an explicit explanation of exactly how and why they don’t apply to me. And for seconds, probably not the infamous verse about how Abraham took up the knife to slay Isaac his son. Boy wouldn’t I be confused, if I had to choose to believe that Isaac was my son, and that I was supposed to take up a knife and slay him? Or that I had already done so? I can’t even begin to fathom what sorts of things would follow from that; In fact, my perception of reality would end up so skewed that it would prevent me from functioning in society. I might even be called insane, because I chose to believe something the Bible clearly was not trying to teach.

This is where that saying, God gave you a brain, use it, comes into play. God doesn’t want us ripping random verses out of the scripture and perverting them to support our anti-social lifestyles. He wants us to compare the way we live to what we find in scripture, honestly. If it doesn’t mesh, then we ourselves, and not our subjective interpretations of scripture, should be adjustmented.

The reason we don’t do this is that we want to give up too early, blaming a faulty understanding of scripture for our own shortcomings, rather than going through the fire and allowing patience to have its perfect work.

But back to the question, which parts of scripture apply to me? Quick answer, Acts 15:1-29. Here the Holy Spirit explicitly states that non-Jews are not to be burdened with Levitican law.

“What then, shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid! How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?” – Rom 6:1&2 I mean, I can hear you saying, “Abraham, all those laws have to be there for a reason. Surely you don’t mean to tell me there are huge sections of the Bible that aren’t applicable to modern-day Christians!?”

Of course not. The Bible is there, as it always has been, to convict us of sin. To reveal the nature of God in contrast with our own sinfulness. To help us grow in faith. I’ll direct you to I Pet. 2:1-3 and Galatians 5-6:1. Also to John 16:7-8.  And Romans 7, particularly verse 7.

And finally, to Hebrews 8:10-13. If you need to be taught laws and codes of conduct in order to live right; if your conscience doesn’t tell you what is right and wrong; if it isn’t pricked when you are tempted to live in violation of the teachings of I Peter 2:12-20, (but esp. v. 16),  and by the example of the Lord Himself in Matt. 17:24-27; if you can’t hear the voice of the Holy Spirit leading you in the right way and convicting you of sin; if the law of love isn’t already written on your heart, then maybe it’s time to find out where you are before the Lord, and whether or not you may be in need of salvation from the death sentence that is found in the law.

quick-and-dirty hack for dealing with chronic rudeness

Friday, November 20th, 2009

If you tell a truly inconsiderate person that they’ve been rude, they will sincerely deny it. This is why we call them “inconsiderate”;  they habitually fail to consider or even realize how their actions affect others.

If you respond rudely instead, then over time they will begin to recognize, either consciously or subconciously, the Pavlovian connection between their own inappropriate behavior and your negative response, and they might learn. If they catch on and say, “Why are you being rude? *I didn’t do anything [this time]*,” then you can respond with, “Well neither did I.” ;)

Justification: the truly inconsiderate do not have a respect for the social contract. They live by the “me first” code. Of course, this wouldn’t work if everyone tried it, but even though they’ve been told this, they stoically await tangible proof. Showing these folks what it would be like “if everybody did” provides them with the undeniable scientific proof they seek. (I was quickly cured of my inconsiderate, “me first” thinking by someone who rewarded me in kind of a minor rudeness. It was nothing nasty but I took the lesson to heart and it changed me permanently.) Also, you have no need to fear karma as long as you don’t go above and beyond what is called for, and as long as your rude behavior is calculated to do more good than harm. (Read carefully)

One final note of warning: if you do try to use this technique, have a strategy in place to avoid hours-long discussions about the minute difference between their rude behavior and your negative response, that one, all-important difference that makes their behavior completely acceptable and condemns yours.

I was wrong

Thursday, September 10th, 2009

When I was young, I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world, I was sure that I’d win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone, so insecure, I blamed you instead and made sure I was heard

And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn’t hear what they had to say

I was wrong, self destruction’s got me again
I was wrong, I realized now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves, well I’ve had a few
I’m sorry that I hurt them, did I hurt you too
I took what I wanted, put my heart on the shelf
How can ya love me when you don’t love yourself

It was me against the world, I was sure that I’d win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me of my evil ways
But I couldn’t hear what they had to say

I grew up fast, I grew up hard
something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody, I was fighting everything
but the only one that I hurt was me
I got society’s blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone’s bad luck last so long
until I realized that I was wrong

– Social Distortion

Johnny’s Gonna’ Die

Monday, July 6th, 2009

Johnny always takes more than he needs
Knows a couple chords, knows a couple leads
Johnny always needs more than he takes
Forgets a couple of chords, forgets a couple of breaks
And everybody tells me Johnny is hot
Johnny needs something that he ain’t got

And Johnny’s gonna die
Johnny’s gonna die
Johnny’s gonna die

Everybody stares and everybody hoots
Johnny always needs more than he shoots
Standing by a beach and there ain’t no lake
He’s got friends without no guts, friends that never ache
In New York City, I guess it’s cool when it’s dark
There’s one sure way, Johnny, you can leave your mark

– The Replacements

Kill your TV

Monday, May 11th, 2009

Television is worse than an opiate – it alters your thinking. Not only does it make you happy and give you whatever you want so that you’ll keep producing for the good of society, it gradually forms your opinions for you. Seriously, you think more than 50% of our population would have voted for a bleeding-heart fascist if they hadn’t had their minds plugged into the boob tube?

If you want to throw off the shackles of conformity, start by getting rid of your television. If you think voting for president B.O. was a radical, audacious  move on your part, how come he won the simple majority?

You can thank your television for Obama.

Eyebrow Raisers

Wednesday, February 18th, 2009

Have you ever met a ‘bear robbed of her cubs’? You know, a really teeth-bearing, unreasoning, desperate, ready for some hard-core limb-ripping action Panda, Koala or what-have-you? Neither have I, but some days, I think it might be a nice change…

I’d like to take the day off and go to school, maybe hand out signs. “Here’s yours. Here’s yours. Ooo, and you DEFINATLY need one. (saw it spelled like this on an old-school BBS one time. Truly amazing.) And, I don’t usually do this, but in your case maybe you’d like a loud siren to go with it??”

Oh, and here’s one. Sure, the Lord made all things, “even the fool for the day of destruction…” but couldn’t He have at least provided some kind of fire safety net, to keep the rest of us from running across their Pathway to an Unspeakable Demise? Seriously…

Don’t bother reviewing this post, by the way; I’ll do it myself. “If this is his idea of a catharsis, then I’d hate to see masoc__sm. This just goes to show that if a stronger, freer spirit does or says anything to hurt your pride, you can always sanctimoniously dehumanize them without fear of reprisal.”

P.S. Imagine… Christian Tourette’s. “Hey, could you HALLELUJAH! hand me the wrench? I want to f-f- REPENT! fix the sink. PRAISE JESUS!”

Spinning

Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009

It makes me wonder… what could have been. The ways I’ve exaggerated… shameful. I don’t know where these tears came from if I’m such an outside observer.

I think I’m pretty different from what I thought I was. Experience… or not experiencing? Shows me what I’m not. What would it take to make me a hard man? Please… I don’t want to know anymore.

All of my priorities are changing. The dreams I had have faded. I wanted to believe I was already something. But have I really walked through the fire? If I had, what would be left for me to brag about?

I’m too comfortable with my complacency. No more time spent, staring at walls, wondering, forging attitudes in the depths of that mildewed, self-imposed black iron prison. Action is all that’s left when words fail me. But … what can I do?

I’m not going to waste an instant feeling sorry for myself.